Story Telling

I can't Control Myself!!

2012-02-11T08:05:00.000+08:00

Arg!!! I knew that I'm like a shopaholic.. It really will make my life getting hard and hard when I always wasting money on the nonsense thing!! But, you know what, I will only wasting lots of money on the mobile phone =.= I bought lots of casing and sticker as well!! I think I had spent almost 100 for all the stuff and like kinda wasting!!

Actually I had been frustrated with my phone I had owned now!!! Samsung Galaxy S2!! It was not so famous and owneed by many people!! And it was lag and hang all the time (sometimes lah!! But actually it cannot be happened since they sold it quite expensive!! Not worth) So I ever think of buying the Iphone 4S but the problem of owning the new Iphone 4S is I need to sold off my Samsung Galaxy S2 which was only 3 months!! It was really an waste!! So, I just keep on using it!! Actually I love to use it but it was all the way lag and hang it was really frustrated and heart-broken!!

Lots of Burden AAwaiting!!

2012-01-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

Entering a new life of 2012, a brand new year of degree life also!!
Entering degree was not as easy as I thought before!! I was totally regret!! I regretted for why am I entering there!! Not because I don't like to be a teacher!! It was because I hate to be an Chinese teacher!! I'm sorry to say that!!
During class, I always hear some of the lecturer saying that we should love our culture, love our language!!
I'm sorry I afraid I can't do it well! I'm trying my very best to love it!! But still the result kinda embarrassing!!
It was not because I'm so HaoLian!! It was just the fact!! Like some of the people love French, Korean.. I love English!! No one forced me to love English, it was my instinct!!
Well I can't say too much on that!! It had already been a reality!! I had no choice from that!!

Degree life isn't that easy as I think of!!
Not as the foundation anymore!! Independent Self-Learning!! Tutorial!! Amali!! There are so much and much that need to be done everyday!! Oh Gosh!! Everyday had to rush all the works till midnight!!

I want rest!!

I don't know!!

2012-01-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

Recently, somethings happened to me!! Well, it's not a bad things either!! It was just what am I choosing for!! I chose to be act in that way!! I'm not blaming on the others or what else!! Just wanna shout it out in here!!

I had been chosen some of my friends to be my besties!! But somehow, when u knew someone better, you will knew his attitude!! Sometimes, it was kinda disappointing and frustrated with it!! Rude, self-centered, too proud of himself and so many more.. I hate those who ever gave me such a feelings!! Sometimes I rather choose to be stay alone without other disturbing!! No talking!!

Well, it was not a big doubt also!! I don't quarrel with anyone, no hard feelings with anyone!! Just I chose to be hang-out with another geng, which I'm more comfortable with!! I do not need to scare when I talked!! But I felt kinda sorry to the older geng also.. Cause I seems to be less communicate with them and don't really go out with them!! It was really a trouble!!

What's the time now??

2012-01-08T17:50:00.000+08:00

Recently saw so much idols that are talented!! In dance, singing and acting as well!! Reflect on me!! I don't know how to dance. If I dance my body is like squeezing or just stop at there.. my body isn't soft enough to allow me to dance as the 2pm, 2am and so much more.. Well my super idol is 2pm!!! Hehe!! They are so talented!! Singing?? No no!! I can't!! If I do?? All the birds are flying and all the glass are going to break!!! It's just can be concluded in a word!! Lousy!! And I don't know any musical instrument!! Sports!! No no!! I hate it!! All the things a man should be can do it I can't do it!!! What is so special about me!! I'm wondering!! So, I can just admire them and try my best to achieve my goal!! 2pm was so fantastic!!! Super Idol!!

Brand New Season

2012-01-02T17:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the first and beginning of the new year!! A whole new full with enjoyment and prosperity I supposed!! And a new of me!! The one who cares lots of others feeling, don't dare to talk so much, always think twice or even more before start to talk, don't dare to scold others, always like a slave to others will definitely missed from this brand new world!! i swear for that!! Please be informed, a brand new of Victor will be born!!!

Follow up Trend? No!! I can't!!

2011-12-23T21:20:00.001+08:00

Trend!! This term always not suit in my life!! I can't follow up the trend everywhere and every moment. I wish I can do but the fact is that I can't!! Money $$$ Not allowed me to do so.. >< The trendy items keep on change days to days!!

I'm not talking on the shoes or any shirts neither trousers!! For men, everything are same and I don't wish to follow up too cause not suit with my image.. Wakaka.. I think those 'fashion' items doesn't looks nice or fantastic and I can't imagine how would I looks if I put on those..

The only I want or I wish is that on the trend of technology!! Opps!! I should specified!! I only interested in the mobile phone!!

IPhone 4S had been announced!! And Samsung Galaxy S2!! HTC Evo 3D!! and so much more!! The only reason why I'm so in love with IPhone series is that the brand is sooooooooooooo popular!! All the celebrities are using it!! Everywhere in the world is using it!! All the casing is all over the world!! And I ever asked in the store why??? Samsung Galaxy don't have much casing as the IPhone?? They answered me "Samsung Galaxy S2 is not so popular as the IPhone.. It's kinda sad!! But anywhere!! I love so much on the Super Amoled and the super large screen!! p/s the screen not so large but just an pretty size.. 4.3 inch!! I don't like the Samsung Galaxy Note!! It's really large and cannot put inside the pocket either!!

I sometimes do regret on buying the Samsung Galaxy S2!! But I'm not regret on it's function, but on it's popularity and the casing.. =p

IPhone 4S? Samsung Galaxy S2?

2011-12-22T13:18:00.000+08:00

I bet many of us have such a question in their mind!! It's really hard to choose between those two, it's goes same with me.. I'm really headache of making comparison between those two!! Those two are equally same but somehow different in each processor and features!! I wish to have a really good one and don't wanna change it for years!! And finally I chose Samsung Galaxy S2 and wish it's the best result!! So that I won't regret on the half way!! But now I seems to be regret!! For Iphone 4S is kinda a hot topic to be discussed among the world and more famous!! =p

It's Brilliant!!!

2011-12-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

We never knew that what tomorrow will be? Will be a nice day or what? Or even worse than today.. Sorry I never knew that!! The only thing I knew is that I do always regret on every decisions I made!! This is most probably because I heard to most people opinion and have such feelings that if a ignoring others opinion is such an betray to the others!! And I'm too often don't follow up with what I felt and just follow blindly.. Follow up your heart and you will see the scenery well!! =)

I Love to be Popular-ed

2011-12-18T19:08:00.001+08:00

I love to be stylish and walk in front of the fashion!! I love the name not the function!! Please lah!! Everything is the same just the name is the only way to decide the price!! That's why the outstanding designer earns lots!! Just because of the name!!

I admitted I'm the one also!! I would like to choose something branded to be wear, use!! I don't care how's the branded items is much more same with the other unknown brand!! I only knew that using a branded items is definitely a proud things to be said!! And of course the branded items must suit with what the financial allowed!!

Somehow, I do regret on buying the Samsung Galaxy S2 sometimes because most of my friends or the papers always talk on the IPhone!! Celebrities holding it, public from European hold it!! It was really awesome and fantastic to have it!! Samsung Galaxy S2 is somehow can beat it in terms of the function!! Anyway, I had set my target!! No more regret!!

Finally Announced!!

2011-12-18T19:00:00.001+08:00

Finally!! Being waiting for such a long period for the master piece of hardworks of late Steve Jobs!! Finally, Iphone 4S announced!! But I'm not lucky enough to have it inside my palm.. I can just see the shadow from the papers or from the hand of friends!! It was pretty bad!! For I owned Samsung Galaxy S2 already as my up level present!! Finally next year I will be in my degree semester!! Whoots!! Thats awesome and fantastic and my dad wish finally realized and he had nothing to worry about already!!

I had been discover both brands of smartphone for quite a long time after I decided to change my ordinary to much brilliant smartphone!! Apple and Samsung-- those two will only be my comparison brand!! I do admit that before that I do think of the brand HTC but after some consideration, it was totally out!! I love Apple!! The brand is so much popular than the Samsung are!! Without a second thought, I had chosen the Samsung!! No regret!!

Yawning the books

2011-10-29T12:13:00.003+08:00

Concentrate please! There's too much entertainment and the stuff which I need to be concern! That's made me totally forget the most important things in this one week holidays!
I was totally sank into my own world until I forget the term "exam"!
Oh Gosh! I should and must be concentrate on the exam!!

Is Over and Loving

2011-09-16T07:23:00.001+08:00

I should shot out loud, "Finally! It's over! I will miss you all!!"
All for One and One for All!!
For this camping trip, I admitted that I really do changed my mindset!!
I Love this camp so much!!

Though the camp had made me physically and mentally ill..
But, it's doesn't a problem to me..
I made quite a number of friends which I never I will talked with but now we did!!
It was really fantastic and endearing..
Too much excitement and challenges..
I love rafting, abseiling, camping with all my beloved friends..

But all those made me realize someone which I knew already had their bad site also..
I discovered.. Before that I think she's a nice and good girl or friends..
But now!! Not at all..
Always do criticizing on the others!!
I hate that way!!
I wouldn't do much comments on that!!
That's her personal stuff not mine..

And some friends which came from the different group I met and realize that they do have so much cute and loving characteristic..
I can said "We are best Friends"

Why Always and Forever?!

2011-08-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

Why the problems isn't stop at the point?
I had been struggled lots from the problems, and I had to calm down with all the situations..
For I believed that it was the test from the Lord Jesus Christ that aimed for me to become a better man and can sustain the life..
And I'm sometimes also I'm so down and frustrated with all those matter!! I really hate it..
The burden of the school works already made me cant even breathe at all and now add on with so much more problems in life again..
Socializing, interacting and so on really made me headache!!
I always hope that all the problems can be solved!!

Why can't the life runs Smooth?

2011-07-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

Why I should encountered all these?
It was just as if I'm so bad and lazy that none of them want me to be in their group.. Instead if I really in the group, things that I will done is much more than the usual group members did!
For I hate being "island" and thrown away just like the rubbish, waiting for the others to pick me up..
I can bet that if I were hardworking in doing my works, none of them can win ahead of me..
It was just the time problems..

Everytime I hate the most when arrived at the group works and most important is that the moment of picking up the group members..
I encountered lots this semester, compared to last semester, this one is the worst!!
I hate it so much..
I wish I can deliver from that problems but I couldn't!

Tired

2011-07-16T07:02:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired about all the things that had been happened! It was just like people are making use of me!
The feelings isn't so comfortable and made me felt me terribly ill...
But I didn't say it for it may hurt the others and made my reputation drop from the days..
I just keep quite and just shout it out when I'm at home with my family..
They will hear from me and that's why I felt so comfortable with it!
Just hope everything will be fine and that's all!!

Really Terrible!!!

2011-07-10T06:13:00.000+08:00

I'm really in a mess.. After the sharing during the EQ class, finally I realized about all the trouble makers is started from myself..
I admit that I do blame others people for treated me in such the way, but after my buddy talked with me about the matters, I finally do understand about the problem..
I'm such a rude, no manner guy to them..
Instead I'm not! I knew I somehow talk with them got a little bit of rude, but anyway I don't have any mean to hurt each of them.. I really take them as my best friends forever!!
I promised will do the correction as soon as possible and apologize for the fault that I've been doing so long!!
May God bless me so that they will forget about all the fault that I had been doing so long and Friendship Forever!!

Thanks for the Honesty

2011-07-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

I'm glad that finally all my beloved friends are honest to me..
Today I finally peel off my mask that I've been wearing for this one and the half year.. But after all, I think that it was not really a good decision for me!!
After all, it made me thinks that what am I talking is all nonsense and not suit with my image as a guy!! Is so regret about it!!
And I've a inner talking session with my buddy!! He told me about my problems that made me felt like alone, no friends at all!!
Not really ignored me.. Just hope me to correct my problems..
And finally I do know about my own problem..
He said quite a number of people have complain about me behalf on my talking..
They said I'm quite rude or can consider as no manner when I talk to them lately.. This had made them felt angry and wanna me to do some correction..
After he had talked about that, I start to reflex back on what I had been doing lately.. I could said that I'm quite rude to them.. Maybe I consider them as close friend already then I don't really think so much about that.. Maybe this had made them really get angry with me.. I'm really sorry!!
I'll do the correction!! xD

I think I Shouldn't

2011-06-25T08:21:00.000+08:00

I finally knew that what I did in the past was a wrong..

When I did some changes towards my life and I finally realized that I shouldn't..

But before that they don't even told me that I shouldn't either..

Before that I think I would be much happy when I did the changes..

But I now finally knew that, it was really a bad and sad changes..

Before that, although I'm not so happy when I'm in that situation..

But now, I don't even know what's the feelings of happy when I now in the new situation..

I always wished that I don't do the changes and felt happy..

May this problems will be settled..

Fun!!

2011-06-25T08:10:00.000+08:00

Finally the days for me to travel to KL came.. It was super excited for me..
I had prepared so much things that I needed in order for me to have fun in there..

And of course some trouble occurred!
I would think that I'm being used by someone when they just seeking me for my help when he needed me..
When he don't, he just ignored me and making me felt such a bad feelings towards the trip..
I just kept it inside the heart and never talked to others because I don't wanna to lose such a good friends in my life..
The inner heart is super duper sad when I think of that problems again.. And writing the blog is the only way I can say it out loudly..
I knew that I can't make all the people act like what I've treated them.. But can't they just treat me nicely as if they treated the others nicely..

Stop talking about the madness and the angry that I had..
Now I miss the fun so much.. I'm super enjoyed the moment I'm with my fellow friends when I played around at the Sunway and Genting theme park..
I love the Sunway water park so much.. It was so exciting with all fun games that they had..
And some of my friends didn't have the gut to explore to the more excitement games..
For instance, they just ignored my plea towards playing the Pirate Ship
It was much more horror than the one we had played in the Genting.. This pirate ship enable you to turn up to 360 degree when it went to the top..
Finally, they just went to the zoo and left few of us having fun in the Pirate Shipp..

Waiting

2011-06-25T07:49:00.000+08:00

Don't know for what reasons I am so exciting about the days going to be travelling in KL with fellow friends..
It has been ages since I traveled to KL few years ago~
I miss the fun and the shopping mall so much than what you will knew about it..
But I also knew that it would also causing some unknown miserable and problems when I traveled!
And I ignored it and all I need right now is having fun..

Exam!! =p

2011-06-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

Exam!! You're such a pain in the ass hole..
You made me suffered a lots and torturing me always..
But one things is that the hurt that you left for me had made me become stronger when I face you!!

But you know? The second semester for me is kinda a hell for me!!
I really suffered a lot in all the way that should be!!
But!! I should say.. Everything will be alright right now!!

Finally! It's Over!!

2011-05-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

And finally I wait for the days!!
The torturing days finally left me away!! U know? Because of that ridiculous exam I suffered a lots!!
Seriously I'm not type of person who love to study lots because of the exam!!
I love to play around!!
And I don't really love to be so serious!
And of course sometimes I did!!
But I really hate of being so tension towards everything that I'm doing!

When I saw some of the classmates remains tension towards the study then I start to scare about the exams!!
You know?
That's the reasons why I don't like to study at hostel though some of the people thinks that study in the hostel is much more better than in home!
But I supposed that study in the lovely home and made me relax towards the exam and made me felt not so tension with the exam..
I ever tried study in the hostel before for only two days then I think on that night that I made a terrible mistakes..
Whenever I saw someone who's so hard doing their study and I'm quite tension with it!!

I somehow love to live without the tension life which everyone live happily and not think of being so cruel to each other in order to get a good reasons or even a position in everywhere..

I need Motivation

2011-05-22T07:53:00.000+08:00

I need motivation!

This is exam week!

If this is the usual day like the normal days it wouldn't caused any problems to me!!

But the problems is that I can't concentrate all in what I supposed to learn!!

The first paper I still can concentrate because I'm stay and study at home..

But the problem is that these few days I'm at the hostel which I think most of the problems happened!

It made me really mad and disappointed!!

And what I need to learn is really a hard time in time!!

I hate to memorize the things and year!!

Monday have my Science Social exam which included the economy, geography and of course the damn shit history!!!

I hate them most!!

Stay Calm

2011-05-17T03:52:00.000+08:00

If you asking me about why my blog was giving the others an emotional feelings..

I had no answers for that!

My life is full with ups and downs, but sometimes I could said that the downs is much more than that of the ups..

And in addition, I'm an emotional person that I'll always think too much for even a little things~

So, if somethings happened I will think in all edges, but often the edges of the bad of the things..

I never think of good edges instead!

That's torturing my life truly!

I knew that my speech always out of my mouth without thinking wisely!

And often when the words is out and hurt the others..

Then I comes to regret!

Always asking for forgiveness..

But always I'm asking for nonsense..

Because they really not as I expected will get hurt or even angry with what am I trying to say!!

And sometimes, the asking for forgiveness always comes with another big problems in life!

I even don't know what should I do?

If I'm not asking for forgiveness, I'll felt so sorry for a long time..

But in the same time, if I do so will cause another problems to happen..

It's really complicated! You know?

Actually, sometimes I would rather that I've the amnesia..

At least I can forget all the problems that I've and start a happy life..

I want the life which don't have any tension or problems at all!

But I knew that it's a difficult task to have such life!!

I'm actually the one who give the tension to myself!!

Not anyone instead!

I'm doing the right things?

Am I right?

Could I continue to sustain the life?

It's Precious

2011-03-27T01:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, u know! The main problems I had now is that I really lack of the confidence!
In any aspect either I could say that!
Somehow, I'm really frustrated with whatever things I've now recently! U know that?
All the works, assessment test and with all those inter-relation problems really made me wanna vomit and mad already!
I think I should really find a psychobiology to cure it!
I don't know why just felt so lonely and hard for me to face the life!
I'm so curious about how come there's some people can talk with others so frequently and still he manage to find the topic to talk with them!
This really made me thought deeply of that!
Instead I know her better why shouldn't I be the one??
Why she can ask him to have a photo with him instead of me wanna asking her?
What's the reasons behind it?

I knew that my social ability is not as good as him!
But, I'm improving!!!
I'm sometime really hard for me to see things like that happened!

It's Confusing

2011-03-15T00:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, is really frustrated and confusing about what I want actually!
The things that I want to have really too much to mention
I'm so sorry to say that, but the truth is in such the way!
I've to admit it and I don't decline it!

I want to have a better status in the community!
I love to being entitled with rich boy and is handsome
Furthermore I'm on the fashion line

I want to be a professional photographer!
Although now I own a Digital Single Lens Reflex camera
But the lens and also the flash is kinda not as pro as what I want!
I just own a standard lens
I want the lens to be 18-200mm..
That's what I wish to have!
I know it's rather difficult!!
But for sure I'll try my very best to get it!

I want so that friendship between all of us remain best in the future..
I don't want that we only consider as friends
But I would rather love that I can consider as soul-mate
Which we can talk deeply in heart and we know each other better
Even without a single words
We just talk with the heart
I know it's kinda hard to find one
But I think I found!

Sometimes is really tiring when thinking of the past
I knew that everyone have the past
But I rather think that the past time which I endured is really embarrassing!

Thanks My Friends

2011-03-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I'll be feeling so guilty to my friends!
I don't know whether what am I doing currently is a wise choice or not..
It seems that I always keep on disturb them
Although they are busy with their works!

But I'm glad that I've such a nice friends!
They are so willing to help me!
Once I'm sick, they will concern about me!
Once I'm tired, they will offer the hand!
Once I'm lacking of confidence, they will give me strength and give me encouragement!
We're always being together
No matter where we're going to..
We're always being together..

Friends Forever

Wall Climbing is Fun!

2011-02-26T16:48:00.000+08:00

During the PSR, I finally endured and participated in the Wall Climbing!
I admit that I'm not so lean and fit that I can't climbed up to the top!
I only manage to climb up to level six

I should said I had no more energy for both of my legs and hands as well
And I don't found any more steps for me to climb up!

PSR is Over!!

2011-02-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

I should said that PSR is a quite fantastic and awesome sports activity that I've ever participated in!
Maybe I don't qualified to say so for I seldom participated in such sports activity..
My sports molecule in the body is rather none..
I don't like sports although sometimes will find that it was fantastic!
I don't even know why I don't have such a molecule in my body but it's true!

I don't really love sports activities like the others did!
Somehow, I have tried to love sports!
I tried my best to love the tennis and basketball as well!
Tennis is influenced by one of the senior that I'm admiring off!
And basketball is influenced by my friends!
I can't escape!

During the PSR, I really learns a lots though it's really tiring and burning!
I brought also my beloved camera!
Which it's such a small kit compared to the other two..
My sifu and one of my friends!
D300 with flash and 15-200mm lens
EOS550 with flash and 15-135mm lens
Which both of the camera is better than mine!
Anyway, I'll try my best to get my flash and lens!

I captured lots and lots of memorable photo!
But all those photo only qualified to say that it's the learner level!
I should learn more and practice more!
Haiz!!

Time is Always Not Enough!!

2011-02-20T07:33:00.000+08:00

This semester really felt a kind depressing and tension for all the time..
I trust that I'm changed!
I'm changed to be more sporting and lovely to be!

But I've always to be worried about the friendship that I've been go through!
I'm always disturbing the others!
It couldn't said that I'm always disturbing others instead!
I just love to talk to friends once the class is finish or sometimes in class :p
Maybe that's the only changes that I faced!

May all the things gone peacefully without any problemsss!!!

What Should I be Doing?

2011-02-12T18:28:00.000+08:00

I really don't have any idea about what I'm going to do right now!
For this moment, I'm really frustrated with all the matters that surrounded me everytime I was going!
All the things were just a pain in my ass!
I keep thinking about all those sucks matters and always have to think about the best solution to solve it!
I really hate of it!
U know?

All the things that I was doing right now were seems like a rubbish and really hate that feelings
People dont appreciate it and that made me felt worse!
I hate it!
I just hope that all my hard works people can felt it and can appreciate it!
Not like what I was receiving right now!

Oh No! I dont want!

2011-02-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

Now! Ya! This very moment!
Is the Forth day of the Chinese New Year
That's mean the Holiday and Enjoy mood have to close or calm down!
I don't want it to happen!
I want more holiday and enjoyment!

But think of today gonna back to college!
Tomorrow have to start schooling again made me really felt headache and wanna flash back the time!
I don't wanna to back to it!
Every Sunday I've to suffer from this kind of suffering!
Why can't I just have a wonderful and awesome Sunday?

I wish that I can just stay at Kuching and don't wanna stay at the hostle
Home is always better than any of the Hostle!
Love Home!!!

Unbelievable Chinese New Year

2011-02-04T08:56:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year for this year is doing such a freaking tired mode!

I think I already infected by the sickness since I'm back to home few days before the Chinese New Year started!

My throat suddenly felt so itchy and I'm so stubborn that I didn't want to take any medicine either..

Because I believe that I've a strong immune system

But it seems that the fact is not like that

My immune system turn to very weak since I'm stay at Kuching for my furtherer study

I don't like to any eat vege because I don't really love the way they cooked the vege..

But now is the time I get the effect..

I'm sick

Can I be?

2011-01-31T16:28:00.000+08:00

I don't know what am I decided recently is a wise choice or not..
But, since that I've decided for it
I've to do it by hook or by crook
Success or Failure is the another matter
We just need to make sure that we already did the best for it and we wouldn't regret when future is coming

But for the time being, I really worried about the how much percentage I could success?
I knew that with the support from the family and friends
I can do it well!

What Happens???

2011-01-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

Can anyone please tell me what's going on for this month or more specific- this week

It seems that everything doesn't arranged in the proper matter

Lots and lots of things I've to worry about

And this really makes me felt headache and really worried about it

I can said that I'm a sadist.. I can easily get worried and sad when something happened though it was only a small matter

I can said that I've been changing since I'm turning into 18..

But when something happened, it really reflected that I'm not really matured yet

I'm still a sadist

I still think of something which are negative

I'm a negative thinker!

I should learn to Trust

2011-01-23T14:26:00.000+08:00

I sometimes don't really trust the others

I only believe in my own

I need to do all the stuff on my own so that everything wouldn't be in a mess

But you need to know that it was really a tiring and hard works

Everything you need to handle by yourself

This was the feelings that I had during the previous years

But, luckily~ This year I found out my friends

Which I considered them as my best friends..

I don't know what will they think of me

But, I just do the best..

For a friend need to do

Help them out whenever I can do for them

I start to trust the others!!! xD

Scary Week

2011-01-22T08:00:00.000+08:00

The week that considered the most scary week in my life finally "will" comes to the end

I just hope that everything will come into a wonderful ending although it happens lots of unhappiness

I just don't know what's the reason

I'm easily get emotional..

I cannot control my own emotion

And that's why I felt so regret after I did something which I would think it's very wrong for me

But thanks for their understanding and don't get angry with my stupid emotion..

For the week, I can easily changed my emotion..

From being very happy to very angry..

What a weird things I encountered

But, glad that I still know to apologize to the friends which I've hurt them..

Hopefully, next week would be a nice and happy week!!

Exhausted

2011-01-09T08:08:00.000+08:00

Is really exhausted about the life I'm going through

Really hates of that kind of bored life

I hate being stayed alone

I love noise!

I love many people together!

But, it seems that I don't really get it

I'm alone

But, it's alright!

I've used with this kind of loneliness and boredom

From the stage of a kids, I already used with no friends

Maybe I knew the reasons

But I just don't have the braveness to admit it!

I dont have the sports cell

I don't really like to attend sports activities

Maybe I shall starts to fall in love with HIM

Basketball, Badminton, Tennis, etc..

And another reasons!

I just don't know how to choose a topic to talk with friends

So, sometimes they might felt lazy and tired talking to me!!

Anyway! I'll find out a way to solve those problems

Now I Realiized

2011-01-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

Now finally I realized that I'm alone in here

In the college that gives me such a hope to have fun and friendship..

I now realized that although I'm in the college currently

But the fate is that I'm still alone

I can say that I don't have a single friends

Maybe I'm too highly graded to myself

And always seems to be too proud of myself

That makes mostly the people don't like me

The attitude, way of talking, way of thinking and the way of doing anything

For the previous, I would think that I'm quite lucky to be in here

But after today the thinking wouldn't be appear in my little coconut anymore

After being said by the others and now is realized

I'll not lye to myself anymore

I have to face the problems

I have to try to solve it

I hope that the it really can be solved before the problems is getting worse

Previously I only knew that one of my classmate is being isolated

But now, think back of it

I'm one of him also

Being isolated

Classmates seldom talk to me

I've to topic to talk with them

Is that because of the feelings of shy??

I don't know

I just knew a thing

My social ability towards the others is rather poor

I admit it

I'm a guy that don't really love to talk

But recently I love to act such that I'm really talkative

That I can calm myself and let others proud of me

Finally 2011 Comes!!

2011-01-01T10:13:00.000+08:00

Last night is the final night we on going for the year 2010

And today is the beginning of the 2011

And I trust that it would be lucky and full with best wishes for me

I'm going to plan everything in matter

I'll try to do the things which I think it's supposed to

No matter how difficult it would be

I'll still doing it without any doubt

I Love travelling

And of course Photography

I really love to go to somewhere else travelling and taking some photo as the memory

I love to departure

I love to travel by airplane

And I love the job which related to the airport and the airlines

These jobs were my ambition since I was young

I could said that I'm influenced by the cabin crew which I met when I'm travelling

I felt they are so cool..

And from that moment onwards

I start to plan so that I can works as they did too

Pilot, airport officer, flight attendants, counter officer

But it seems that I can't even think of it

I've a piece of contract that made me can't go away from being a teacher

Life still going on

Everything will have hope

It's Hard to Believe

2010-12-29T10:12:00.000+08:00

Now is already 29 of December

That's mean the year of 2010 is officially ended within these two days in time

Truthfully, the year 2010 is really means a lots for me

I endured lots of things in life

A lots of ups and downs that I never think it will be happened

But all those things happened

I think it's the challenges that Lord want me to endure for the process of learning

I'm now 18

A year to the adult world

From the beginning of 2010, I attended the national service which quite a few people will think that it was really ridiculous and terrible and horrible

But, at last and finally I finished

With proudly, I announced I finally produced a paper of certificate that says I'm finish the ns

Though the service is kinda hard and tiring

But I was so proud that I had been endured it

At least I can told the others I already finished the lesson

And the most important thing is that I knew lots of friends

They are so helpful for me during my difficult times while I'm at there and also while I'm away from the camp

Though we had less our contact but I believe that our friendship won't be finish till the point

I could said that I'm a introversive person

I don't like to social to the others

But I knew socializing is important

So, I'm now learning on how to be social to the others

So, It's hard for me to find a friends

Then, I'm going for the teachers' interview

Wish that my future can be a teacher

But I don't even knew why would I be choosing that as my carrier

I just apply for it and going for the interview

Maybe I just seeing it could be let me have a job while I'm out of the university life

I went to Melbourne just right after the day I went for the interview

It was really a happy, wonderful and awesome trip I've been through

I love travelling while carrying a camera

I love the weather so much

I went to there is about the autumn which is going to be winter season

The weather in there is kinda cold

But, the cold wouldn't too cold that till the state that people cannot stand for it

The people in there were so nice

I endured a couple that willing to help us taking photograph without the offer

And the things sold in there was really so special, the market didn't wet at all

I love it

It's too bad that I only travel at there for three weeks

Wish that can stay longer at there

I will definitely go to travel to Melbourne again

And of course to the other country for my largest wishes is to travel along the the world

After my travelling, then I entered the horrible college

It's totally out of my expectation

It's kinda horrible

The college which I expect is like the SwinBurne... Lol

Swimming pool, gym, court..

But these seems to be missing at there

At the subject is really a pain in ass

The subject is really sucks

The subject which I hate most- PJ

comes to become my minor subject

Everytime it comes to that lesson, will felt like the sky is going to fall down

I hate it

I hate sweating

If I'm given a choice I will rather choose the TESL as my major subject

I love English more than Chinese

But, what can do??

Schooling Time comes again

2010-12-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

Five more days to GO!

I've to struggle for the college difficult time again!

I really HATE it...

This kind of feelings really made me nearly mad because of the idiot

I really struggle a lot for the time being at there

No comfortable life at all

No freedom

Only lappy and camera accompany me at there

Sometimes really get bored with the lappy

Nothing interesting that catch my eyes at all

Every time I went down to Kuching

Once I across the 100% shopping mall (considerable?)

And also the Seberkas Mall

It's kind of depress fall on my heart

I was really frustrated with the IPG
But I'm telling myself that I've to love it

I still have 5 more years to go at there

U know it's kinda a long time to go

Learn to fall in love with it

* Difficult

May God Bless Me

Christmas Is Over

2010-12-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

I don't want to admit it!

But I've to!

By hook or crook, through the over of the Christmas

I've to be ready for my college life again

It's hard for me to think of it

How am I going to finish up my time at there?

Thinks of it really made me felt nervous of it

Again!

I've to prepare for the dance, the jogging 2.4km

And all the things I hate

Why can't I just finish up my college time with those assignment and exam?

Why still need for the co-curriculum?

Why still have the outdoor activities?

Why all the things seems out of my expectation?

Sigh! Hate to think of it!

I'm wondering if I doesn't be chosen

It should be a wonderful things to be

At least I'm happy and satisfied with all the things

If give me a chance for me to choose

I won't walk on this nonreturnable road again

I will do and study the field that I like

Though it might difficult to travel along

But I'm happy

Christmas

2010-12-25T03:20:00.001+08:00

Every year the Christmas celebration should be a big event to be

The year should end at the Christmas eve

and the next year should also begins with the coming of Christmas day

The day which means everything should be renew

Take only the good one and throw away all the bad

Like the memories

When the Christmas songs were sang

That's mean we should prepare our heart to accept the coming next year

and also examine the position of Lord in our little Heart

The Lord should be the king of the Heart but not the Evil

I always been interrupted by the evil that sometimes will doing something very wrong

and feelings so bad to Lord, family and also ourselves

From the time being ate the bread as the body of Lord Jesus Christ,

We should deliver all those bad things in our mind

Let us just remember the good things that we should do

Do pray for the others

Nokia Vs Sony Ericsson

2010-12-24T20:24:00.001+08:00

Now is bloody hate Nokia and bloody love Sony Ericsson

for the phone brand

Sony Ericsson is quite nice for the phone design

And the Nokia is so normal

No design at all I can said

I'm so love the phone model W950 or the W995 so much

But don't now previously for what reasons

I just bought a Nokia C6

Hope that I can get it.. Lol

Looking Forward!

2010-12-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

Looking forward for the days we're being united together again

We have to fun time together

We eat in the same dining table

We laugh for the same joke

We sing the same songs

We take photograph together

And all the things

But

I realized that it would only happened maybe only once for a year

I will really appreciate the time and the moment together

I will never miss the fun

Though I knew that I might be use up lots of $$$ of that time

But, I knew $$$ is not such important anymore

The friendship is the worth-fully for me

Please! Keep Moving On!

2010-12-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

I knew the day we're going to say goodbye to each other will always come

when we met each other~

Sometimes it's hard to say out the single words which means the separation!

But, we've to!

We have to say goodbye always with a smile that signify blessing

We are holding with our further planning, dreams

We can't be always together

Being united!

Though the life is full with joy and pains

But I will remember only the memories we're together with joy!

I will take the pain memories into the recycle bin and delete it!

And always holds you in my Heart until the day coming

After saying Goodbye to everyone

Please keep moving on as far as u can!

Don't stop!

Keep moving on!

Memories

2010-12-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

Memories is always reminds me that I should always flash back to see every moment we're together

Sometimes when flashing back the memories through the only way-photography,

will have some kind of weird feelings

That feelings is kinda weird

It's unbelievable!

Terrible, Horrible and I can't imagine it!

When flashing back, will think of the every moment we're together by a special chain!

I don't care whether the chain will broke in any time in the future or not

But I trust that I won't make it!

Because I love the chain that held me together with you!

We will never standing back to back with each other..

Trust me! I can do it!

When i saw the photograph

Sometimes will really miss the time until the tears will accidentally drop by with realizing

Maybe I'm too emotional?

I miss them too much?

I want to go back to such a scenery that we're together?

The answer I knew that's all!!!

Friends

2010-12-11T09:40:00.001+08:00

Suddenly missed my friends so much..

All of them are cute and awesome..

Love them so mucchhhhhhhhhh~

Look back the memories and events with them. it's kinda miss them..

Love the times we're together..

Hang-out, playing, chatting is always fun..

Maybe for the previous time, I was quite shy and shame with all them.. Just a quite friends to them..

But I trust the time may change everyone.. Of course included me!

I will start to change to be more talkative like the others do..

Trust me! I'll do that!!

Am I Wrong?

2010-12-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

This question often appear on my head!
Am I wrong in making any decision? Everything I done is for the good of my friends and I'm willing to help them each and every time they needed my help..
I won't said more than a word to help them..
But, till the end.. What did I get?
I get nothing...

For what reasons or purpose am I doing all these stuff?
I really no idea about it..
Just help me out from this damn shit and exhausting situation..
Hate all the way!

All I Get!!!

2010-12-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

I officially announced!
I finally get everything I wanted much in these 18 years..
I get an brand-new DSLR: Nikon D3100 finally!!!
U knew I have been waiting it for years?
I love photographing..
I love take pictures everywhere I travel at..
I love to take pictures on what ever events that I've endured!
I will start to learn more about the photography area!
Gambateh!!

Hear Voice

2010-11-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

I cannot hear my inner heart's voice..
Not other reasons for that.. Just I cannot let all the troubles gone away just like that.. I always think the trouble in other way else.. I'm a little bit critical and negative thinking about all the things happened..
What can I do?

I can only pray so that my heart can remains calm.. so that I can find out the solution of every troubles..

Phone Rings

2010-11-25T07:57:00.000+08:00

Recently, is so waiting for the phone to ring.. I don't care whether it is the calling or the message..
As long as someone finding me, someone chatting with me..
Then I felt okie already.. But unfortunately, I think I can't enjoy such a simple things..
Not because i'm busy with all my works.. Just that my social ability wouldn't let me do such things..
What can I do?

I just appreciate each and every moment I'm with my friends calling and chatting..
Maybe I'm such an emo person... Always think of the negative way..
But, for me! The most important thing was: "Prepare for the worst things to happen and pray for the best"

May Lord bless me so that I can gain more friendship and friendship between all the friends will last forever!

What Can I do?

2010-11-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

What Can I Do?
I think everyone is trying to escape from me.. I'm not trying disturb anyone's life..
Just that life is too boring.. I just want to share something with somebody..
If I've made you all felt disgusting and hating, I hearty would like to apologize for what had I been doing..

May God bless me so that I can talk with friends more frequently! Amen

Choice

2010-11-22T08:01:00.000+08:00

I think i made a wise choice!

I'm not going to the Malacca during the Mar time..

For many reasons actually!

Don't want missed the class anymore because after being the incident of the driving test.. Started to scared about the escape of the school..

For that time, I'm not really escape! I've ask for the permission! But, just that I'm too rush- I don't wait till the letter given out by the officer then straight away going for it..

I really hope that it wouldn't be causing any problems to me..

I'm talkative

2010-11-22T07:56:00.000+08:00

I don't know for what reason..
Suddenly wanted the digi campus so much.. For it enable me to contact by calling only two ringgit per day to all my friends..
Unfortunately, the promotion had been sold out..
But, I'll also tried my best to get it..

Don't know for what reason, I started increase the social capability with friends.. I think! Haha
For the previous, I don't like talking too much.. I only talk whatever when it's necessary..
But now, I can talk whatever although it's not so important for almost half a day..
And I'm so thankful to my friend that willing to share his time talking with me..
And after I'm back, suddenly felt that nobody to talk with is really a very sad things..
Then, I started to call upon my friends..
They have no respond.. I mean the friends that I knew since schooling time..
Not the campus friends..

I want talk! May God bless me so that I can talk with them by phone call and will not escape from me..
God blessed

Changes!

2010-11-22T07:45:00.000+08:00

I think after having a semester in IPG Kampus Batu Lintang for the teacher training, I think I faced lots of challenges as well as changes..
Maybe not many people will felt it, but I'm the one who can really felt it..

I started to open my heart, accept those things which I think can't be happening..
I started to share what's in my inner heart, although it is not the full way, but I've learned the share and I knew it's the good beginning..
Great only I can said!

And I also found a best friend for me..
I donno whether is he take me as his best friend or not?
But, at least I think he's my best friend..
May God bless so that our friendship will be stronger and last forever!

Talkative

2010-11-17T07:41:00.000+08:00

Am I a talkative guy?
Yes! I am..
But only with the guy that I'm so knew with him..
Otherwise?

With the guy that I'm well known or known as my best friends..
I'll not stop talking with them..
I'll zi zi za za..
Non-stop talking..

Why it Should Comes to Life?

2010-11-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

Can anyone please tell me..
Why I should suffer from all these difficulties?
Can't I just having the great time for one week with my friends?
Why I should be feeling angry, sad, disappointing and all those difficult and negative thinking?
Can anyone please kindly tell me..

Before the holiday, I'm so excited and waiting for the coming holiday..
But, after the exam..
I don't have such the feelings anymore..
I started to flash back the time of difficulties doing all those academic revision..
Although it was quite a tough time, but I've so much great time and happy time..
I'm not a person love to being alone..
I love party and have noisy surround..
But, unfortunately I can't experience it after the exam..
I don't know why it should be happening..
It was really rediculous..
And I'm not suspecting any reasons or answer..
Cause I also don't have any answer for it..

I really don't have any mean to hate others..
But, I really do hate people when the feelings is comes to the heart..
The heart may control all those little things..

Lord, Jesus Christ!
May Lord bless and help me so that I can successfully endured this difficulties in my daily life..

Am I supposed to?

2010-11-14T07:41:00.001+08:00

I have confirmed with Mr Alex about the trip..
I can go le finally..
Having great time with Grup Seni friends in Malacca..
I've to book the air ticket by myself..
But, that's okay.. Because I've check for the air fare..
It's kinda cheap..
I think the go and return trip only cost me 150++

But, the major problems is that I don't have any friends to accompany me to go there..
Only all those girl friends..
No guy in my class is joining the group..
So, it's scaring that I might be alone..

Decided for me.. xD

Trip

2010-11-13T17:27:00.000+08:00

I supposed whether am i really have friends?
This question is always in my mind for ages..
Maybe I really do have a friends, but not the best one..
I'll only the term "FRIEND"
I told everyone here..
To me: Every Friend is my Best Friend! I'll do the best for them..

But! What they have done to me?
This really a big question and none of them could answer this single question..
I knew! But I just don't want to think of it..
Let me have a great time.. If i thought of it, for sure the sad one will be me..
Not others.. Is me! Myself!

I supposed to hear the news about the agenda in the meeting yesterday on the spot..
My friend can message me.. I'm waiting for their message.. But! Unfortunately! I have no chance to receive such a caring message!
I got the information only when I ask them.. Can't they inform me instead of I ask them..
Is that a friend should be doing?
I have no answer for this question..

Am I supposed to continue to join the "Grup Seni" next sem?
Should I join the trip to Malacca with them?

Friends

2010-11-12T18:30:00.002+08:00

The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you. ~Elbert Hubbard, The Notebook, 1927

Friends really means lots of me! I rather lose money to gain a huge and lovely friendship..
As I'm a really stingy person..
As you can knew that I looked friendship more than everything from that..

Maybe I'm not your best friend!
But I looked upon you all as my best friends..
I will help all those friends whenever they needed my little help..
I wouldn't think so much when request their help!

* Friendship Forever till the end of the world*

Life

2010-11-11T21:00:00.001+08:00

Life is really full with ups and downs..
I admit that my life is not so smoothly worked as the others do.. Others often have their smooth way while travelling in the life journey..
But, unfortunately, the smooth road is not mine.. It's others.. I dont have such a oppurtunity to have it..

My road always full with the trouble that I often have to worried for..
And my attitude always is worried too much about something.. Maybe I'm too worried about the things that might be happened..
But, the fact is that what i always worried for is always useless and most of the time did not happened at all..
But, my heart still worried about those useless things..
What the mad person am I?

Hearts!

2010-11-09T08:21:00.000+08:00

Really what do the Hearts doing recently?

Feeling like no mood doing the study..

But have to force myself to do it.. Luckily successfully doing all the revision well..

But still felt scary sitting for the exam.. Maybe is the effect of the previous exam-BC 1311 exam paper..

So keep on doing the revision on the same topic for few times..

For sure I'll not give up..

Give up=Die

Never give up=still have chance to live

So, Lord! Give me the strength.. Chayou! Fighting! xD

Hates

2010-11-03T14:40:00.002+08:00

When "Hates" comes to the mind, you wouldn't know what will be doing on next..
It's true.. I have tried it before..

When someone knew me very well, they will knew my attitude..
I don't love to share things.. I'll give it not share if I willing to..
But most time, I do giving..
I'm not trying to praise and raise up myself.. Just this is the really the fact..

But in terms of the inter-relationship with the others, I really give and share what I've with them..
Of course for some time, I still kept the secret with me..
this is to protect myself from being hurt
The world now is so dirt..
I have to protect myself

Aging

2010-10-31T06:29:00.002+08:00

With the aging, the attitude started to change each and everyday

I start to realize that the importance of winning in everytime..

But, I'm losing in the sports side..

So, I have to work double hard in the academic side so that I wouldn't lose to anyone anymore..

I don't really think I will and I can lose in the exam anymore..

For the reality didn't allowed me to do so..

I will put my full concentration in each and everytime the class began and to improve my sporting skills so that my body will be lighter and keen in sports..

That is why I promise to myself that I would do..

Exam

2010-10-31T06:17:00.002+08:00

Is started totally stressed into the exam..

I can't admit that I'm a photostate machine..

I can't remember all the single things inside the books that I've read..

I can only recall back and that's the only way I can enhance my memory..

So, in that way, I've to read quite few times and then I can memorize..

Suddenly

2010-10-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

Every things came in a sudden makes my breathe becomes difficult..

I wish to escape from all the things..

I wish that every single things will be fine till the end of every steps..

But unfortunately, I can only wish but can't doing it..

I don't love to stay at hostel, but in other words love to..

It was rather difficult for me to choice either one of them..

But, everytime I think I'll make a wise choice for Jesus is always be with me..

Scary

2010-10-17T06:32:00.003+08:00

Don't know for what complicated reasons..
Today suddenly can't sleep well even though is at home now..
Suddenly awake from sleeping..
Then keep thinking of the road that I'll have to travel to..
I knew I'm not in the "Road Not Taken" already
Because I've chosen a road and there's no backward..
If I travel backward I would have to pay 13000..
You know it means a lot for me..

Truthfully, I'm not scared about the academic test or something written..
Just scared about the sports side..
I scare I'll failed it since I don't like to sport and and body is rather jiang ying
It makes my body feel like very heavy..
And always during the pj class is the most horrible lesson on that day..
In addition, Monday is full with the pj lesson
So, I rather hates Monday than the others..

Tomorrow will be sit for the ujian amali for the lesson pj for this semester
I'm scared and terribly worried about it..
Really scared will failed and need to repeat it again for another time..
Not for the dance side..

Talent

2010-10-16T17:01:00.002+08:00

I'm wondering whether I'm a person or not?
Each and everyone has their own talents in different ways..
Someone keen in study
Someone keen in sporting
Someone keen in socializing
Someone keen in IT
Someone keen in dancing
Someone keen in singing
Someone keen in teaching
Someone keen in many side

But, who can tell me that which side should I belongs to?
I have no talent for this moment!
I'm the poor in the sporting side..
If you ask me to go for a sport..
I will really refused to go unless it was a test for the examination..
I don't know and don't like sports..
All I love is stay at home, sleeping, thinking something, close to Lord

I'm poor at study
Looks at my result and you'll definately knew..
I dont like to study but I have to..

So, may God give me some talents so that I can live happy ever..

Friends

2010-10-16T07:39:00.002+08:00

Friends really means a lot for me..
They are not my partner in my life.. But they are my strengthen to continue the difficult journey in everywhere I travel.. That's what I think a friend should look like..
But! The problem is that I'm still looking for a friend looks like that..
Unfortunately, I don't know whether my friend is my friend or not!
It was ridiculous!

I admit I might not be a nice person
I love to jealous on many things

But, I have tried my best solve those problems
I have do my best on it
And I also do help all my friends when they are needed
May God bless me

Trouble weeks

2010-10-16T07:28:00.002+08:00

Today will be the end of this trouble weeks
But, I doesn't know whether the trouble will get rid of me or not?
I really have no confidence to solve all the problems that I have encountered..
It is rather difficult than anything..
I can't even knew what's going on next..
I don't even know how's am I going to solve all those problems..
I really sort of idea now..
Lord! Hear my prayer and do help me so that I have strengthen to encounter all those problems..

The trouble really makes me lose all my concentration either in study life or daily routine..
I have no mood to do my daily routine..
Tired to eat because keep on thinking about the problems..
What should I do?

Sometime

2010-10-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes felt like they all didn't appreciate what have I done to them..
They always seems that the things that I'm doing is a compulsory things..
They always do as ignoring my works that I've done to them..
I always do think of them each and every time I'm doing something..
But, what did I get?
Nothing!

I just want to gain more friendship..
I just want to help out and make them felt like I'm one of their friends..
Is that really wrong?

Sometimes also will also think of don't want to hiu them anymore..
But, I can't!
I'm so weak and don't have the strengthen in the heart..
After certain hours or even minutes, I've changed my mind set already!

Why?

2010-10-10T12:46:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, wondering is that everything good things that I've done to all my friends worth?
Sometimes, it is really so tired and sad when I have done all the good things to my friends and yet they didn't appreciate it but they seems felt it like something that it was very common things..
They don't know that I've been giving them so many and tiring already!

Why I always treat them so nice yet everytime they hang-out they are not invite me going also with them?
Why they don't want invite them to join the competition when two more person is needed?
Why they don't want invite me to join in their group in the competition?
Why they seems don't want to make friends with me?
Why?????

Problems

2010-10-10T12:36:00.002+08:00

Why problems love to stuck on me?
Can't they just leave me away? Leave me alone?
Really felt exhausted managing all the problems that came one after another..
It seems like the problems have no end in my life..
Everyday running the daily routine: "Worry", "Scare"

May God bless and help me so that problems in my life can be solved time by time..
and I can do my life with comfort and happiness..

Great Weeks

2010-10-10T06:33:00.002+08:00

Now, after mentioned by my minor PJ lecturer, then I realized that I've been in IPBL for almost 13 weeks already!
Today, will be step into the 14 week.. Time really passing without realizing..
Truthfully, I have a great time and also a difficult time with all my lecturer and also with my friends (course-mate) ..
I endured lots of difficulties which I never expected that it will be happening.. It was rather so sad, but with the blessing from Lord Jesus Christ, I think I can solve it successfully!

The very first difficulty is not more than the inter-relationship or socializing problems..
Truthfully, telling you guys that I'm not so keen in socializing with the others..
Certainly, I don't know what topic am I going to talk and chat with them while we're together..
But, I've learned about it step by step!
Maybe now still not the time I'm so keen in it! But, I trust time will change "Impossible" to "Possible"! At least I hope so!
May God bless me always!

Sometimes, the heart is hurt when my all my friends are going for the outing and gathering while they're not asking me to hang-out with them..
Although I'm not saying it out of the words, but I really hurt!
Luckily, they do also for few times! It makes me really very happy!
I'm wondering that next time am I still have the chance to have such a opportunities and lucky to have that??!!
I can't do anything.. The thing that I can do is just pray! Praying makes my heart more stable!

After holiday, it seems that I'm getting closer with my friends yet sometimes we're so far!
For sometimes, we're hanging out together happily and have time chat with him...
But sometimes, I felt that he's not makes me as one of his friends!!
Anyway, nothing I can do! I can just pray for making our friendship better than ever shall be!
May God bless and help me!

Last week is a fun and busy time for me! Always hanging out and used up lots of money!
My wallet is like the skin, keep on bleeding..
It was used for eating since the dinner dapao service is prohibited by the hostel!
Haha! and also I have newly bought a new branded handphone, with touch screen which I wish to have to long time ago!
Also, I bought a new pillow! A very nice, recommended by my friends..
It was really so comfort and I've tried it once I entered his room..

Schedule:
Tuesday: Seberkas (Buying new handset-Nokia c6)
Wednesday: Star (Movie)
Thursday: Seberkas (Eating)
Friday: Spring (Eating, Movie)
Saturday: Hopoh, India Street

Really have a fun and lovely weeks! Next week gonna stay at hostel only cannot go out anymore.. Savings

Getting Bored!

2010-09-09T20:34:00.002+08:00

I'm now in the IPBL for almost two months.. It was not considered as a short terms but also not a long terms...

But, I've realized a lots of things in life.. Something I never knew till the moment I'm in there.. At there, I knew how my social-ability is.. How people treat me.. And how everything goes!

During my seventeen and even when I'm in the national service, I never experienced all these! But now i think the college is worse than national service.. I knew every people will scold me idiot, stupid! But at least that's how I'm thinking of!

At least when I'm in national service still have lots 5 of my best buddy accompany me and solving my problems... But now?! Sorry to say! Everyone is just like evil.. Hanging out without inform or asking me whether I'm going or not! That's what I hate for!

Everything's not under my Control

2010-08-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

Each and every time when I'm alone in my room, I always feel so lonely..
I'm rather pity with myself in such the environment! I always think that I can change my story but unfortunately I cant!
I'm the one who always did the envy jealous work alone.. Nobody could understand me.. If they did, I bet they will definitely laugh at me!
Actually I don't need everything! I just need love of friends and family! Love of family, I could felt that.. Truthfully, I admitted I've a lovely family which I always love to..
I always feel so comfort and safe while I'm beside of my family! They always give me the strength to continue my journey that full with trouble!
I'm the trouble maker! I always worry too much things that I often made myself in a crazy situation!
I must change! may these changes can totally change my attitude towards the life!

Friends? I don't really satisfied with it! Truthfully, I cannot feel the love of my friends towards me.. And of course sometimes I did something very bad to someone! Which only I realized after did all the things..
Sometimes really envy of some of the same intakes that can have such a good friendship with other senior.. Instead me? Sorry to say!
I admit I'm a shy, talk-less guy! I'm doing my best effort to change it! But it must took me sometime to do that!
Trust me! I can do it! Only I made myself close to each other then I can play around with them..

The Lord is my only way so that I can leave out all the trouble.. while I'm in church, I can felt the warm, the harmonious.. Sometimes I really pray to Lord so that I can handle the difficulties in my life! May God bless me! Amen!

Rushing Months

2010-08-20T21:03:00.002+08:00

The month of August will be a tiring and exhausting month for all the students in the ipgm.. Every subject's assignment had to be done before the holiday..

Yesterday, as the Friday is coming soon and I'll be back to my home since I've been stayed outside for one month.. But the tiring and scary feelings had covered all the exciting feelings.. I've to rush for my moral teras and history short assignment! Although it was only the short assignment, but it really makes me headache..

I want everything to be in perfect job.. So, everything in my group work, I'll take it and make the last checking, make sure that everything is done perfectly! So, yesterday I worked till 3 in the midnight and wake up again at 4:30 in the morning.

But today I start to realize that not everything I can do perfectly! The history assignment that I pass up today, I forgot to staple one of the page and made the whole assignment felt like spoilt! Maybe I should go and get the assignment back and staple it again.

Why?

2010-08-07T18:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I think I haven't prepare yet to accept all the fact that I received! Truly, I really can't accept the presence of one of my classmate that he don't have the characteristic as a teacher! I'm not mean that I qualified or what! Just giving the opinion. He really dont have the face and his attitude I really can't stand for it! His face always show that he's a bad guy!

I can't deny that I have the problems also! I'm so stubborn and can't open my heart to accept him to be my classmate for five and half year while I'm in here!

Sometime, I also dont understand what's my problems actually that others enable to do it while I cannot??? I mean in the inter-relationship side! If in the other side, I can bet I can do it well! But in the inter-relationship, I really can't do it well!

I dont understand why my same badge friends can be so close to the other seniors which I cant! Maybe I havent have my mindset open?

Get that out of my mind!

2010-08-07T17:46:00.002+08:00

I want to get everything that is negative out of my little mind and concentrate on the assignments that made me felt want finish all within these few days!

Everyday, teachers coming sure will gave us task to complete and doing the assignment! Really headache! Really want to get out of this! But I knew I can't escape from it and I should complete it as it is part of my studies! I've to get use with it!

These few moments, I really think about my future and what should I be doing if I continue like this.. Maybe the fact is true and I shall accept it that I'm not so close with my classmate.. Sometime, I'll ask to myself whether am I having any friends? Or just classmate instead?!

Sometimes, even a simple little things, I'll be happy for the whole day! That's me! When somebody still remember me, talk to me, greet to me.. That's a very high pleasure for me! Because I never expect that they'll remember me, greet me and talk to me! And because of this simple reason, I can happy and moody for the whole day!

Thanks! I god Jesus in my Soul

2010-08-06T23:25:00.002+08:00

Lately, Every Thursday I managed to attend the ritual ceremony that are in St Bede which is in our school campus only.. No matter how tough is the work I'll also attend the gathering or the mass because only there I can find the home of my soul and talk nearer to the Father!

And everytime I came back from the chapel, I felt more comfortable and have the energy to solve the problems in the life!

And found that I met few very nice senior that with the same religion with me.. They all are so helpful to me! Thanks!

Now, if I have the extra class in saturday, I'll stay at the hostel and go to the church the next morning with the senior..

May everything be done successfullly and I can handle all sort of problems in life! Amen

2010-08-06T22:39:00.005+08:00

I'm so surprise that I could stand the life in the IPBL in one month long time.. Though one month isn't that consider to be a long period, but for me it is.. I've to struggle and made myself into this situation.. I think too many events or things disappointing me in here..

All the things is out of my expectation.. I recall.. Everything! In my thought everything is so wonderful and it's a great things once I get into the environment.. But everything is so messy and I can't get into the environment.. Maybe I need more time in order for me to get use with the environment!

In here, I couldn't manage the inter-relationship or friendship with all the seniors and the classmates.. I also don't know why? Just feel that I can't manage it well! Sometimes, will also jealous and envy of some of them who can easily get know and have a good friendship with the seniors and classmates.. They can easily talk with them, asking them about the assignment, hang-out with them..

Maybe I'm the type of person who is nei xiang and dont like to be so zhu dong! But in order for me to get into this environment, I've tried myself to be more zhu dong in the inter-relationship.. But, it seems that the result isn't reach my expedition yet.. I think in now stage only 20%..

Hopefully everything will be fine with the help of God! Especially the inter-relationship! Amen

I Can Do it!

2010-07-11T17:59:00.003+08:00

Recently, just starting my first tutorial week already felt very tired and stressful.. Lots of stuff need to do! But, that's not the main reasons why I'm so down with it.. The main reason is that I'm so weak in organizing the interpersonal relationship..

I felt that I'm really so poor at making new friends.. From the previous years, I already noticed about it.. I have no friends okay?! A true friend! I don't have! Only have a few "friends" consider classmates! Haiz! When the troubles came, only few willing to help me! That's why I really thankful to them so much!

In the IPBL, it seems that I havent found a true "friends" like all the others do! They all in the group of their friends, leaving me alone to face all the difficulties! I really wanna stay out of the hostel! I don't want stay inside anymore! full of sad when saw people hanging out with friends, instead me? No sorry!

I want everything to be done perfectly! No delaying, no simply works! i want perfect job! So, i dont care what people did! I want all the assignment to be done perfectly though i was the only one who did the job!

Just hope that everything can done smoothly! I can complete my five and the half-year course successfully and with flying colours! And hopefully I can make up a good friendship with all my classmates and also with all the seniors! i'll be more zhu dong! Trust me! Amen! xD

My Reflection

2010-07-09T17:37:00.002+08:00

After a week in the IPBL, I start to think that I gonna do something! Something good changes in my life so that I can live happier than before..

1. I have to change my attitude! Often too envy of the others.. Whatever people have I also want to have a part of it! And the worse is that what I have I don't wish people to have it! I start to know the meaning of a proverb that people used to say "sharing is caring".

2. I shall make myself more social-able.. Don't just wait people, you should start the point! I used to wait people greet or say hai to me than I'll greet them back! This attitude I should change.. I shall change to greet others first before they do! I really have no idea how some of my friends can easily get friends and interact with them so fast but I can't! I should find out the reasons and solve the problems! Am I always didn't give any respond to what people said? Am I too cool? I don't know..

May God will help and bless me so that I can solve the problems in my life and study! May God bless us! Amen!

First Tutorial Week

2010-07-09T15:20:00.003+08:00

Last Monday started my tutorial week in IPBL.. Though there was wireless supply, but it was damn slow.. Many web page is filtered! Cannot served in.. MSN, PPS... So many.. And some info also cant find about it!

The first day we have been informed that every subject we need to do with the portfolio.. Something like the assignment.. And Monday got two assignment need to be completed already! the PJ.. Haiz.. Then Tuesday the IT class another one assignment to be completed!

But anyway, I still effort to do it with the help of all my lecturer and seniors.. And of course God blessing! I'm happy with that! I manage to do it lar at least! I really thankful to Lord Jesus Christ for bringing me to the college and start a new study life in here.. Lots of fun and also works.. But the time being together with all the friends of course including the seniors..

Thanks especially for David that would kindly lend his previous works of PJ to me and share his experience in the college!

On the Wednesday, after jogging with few friends and chit chat with some seniors.. Have our dinner at the cafe and chat with a senior.. i don't really know his name.. He's a nice guy shared lots of things with us.. Then, after taking bath I went to the St Gabriel.. A small church in the college.. There's a little event that welcoming all the Christian junior and interact with them! A nice time to be! Feel like the soul being filled with the spirit of Lord Jesus Christ again after so much things that uncomfortable! Feel very happy after that!

Hope to get more friends in there and study well! Amen

New Life in IPBL

2010-07-04T13:30:00.003+08:00

28 of June- A memorable day for me! This very day I'm stepping in Institut Pendidkan Guru Kampus Batu Lintang... And I'll be complete my five year study course in here and become a primary school after that! It's the little step to achieve my dream! Let's pray for me!

27 June
I went to the IPBL at the afternoon time.. Wanna get a good hostel and of course saw how's the hostel looks like! I wore in formal and actually didn't need! Anyway, I just going on without any shyness! Then I just went to the school compound, the administration block! No one at there.. So, plan to back to home and came next day! On the way, I saw some people and asked them about the hostel and they showed me the way and give me some info of it! Useful! xD Thanks them! Then I moved inside the room! the room's quite nice than I expected to!

28 June-
I went to the IPBK again for the registration purpose! So nervous and exciting! Cannot slept throughout the whole night.. But praise to GOD everything done successfully! Found a nice room-mate.. Just that he don't like to speak! Haiz! I love spoke but he don't! So sad! Anyway, he's quite nice!

Throughout the whole week is a busy week! Everyday have lots of activities, the sports, the talk... The talk is held in a air-conditioned auditorium.. It seems that a nice place for people who are tired to sleep! I want to sleep also, but luckily I managed to control it!

2 July 2010
It's the last day of the orientation week.. I seems to be so terharu with all the things that senior had done to us! Thanks them for the teaching! Giving us the support! And also the night whereby the junior will perform something before end-up the ceremony! The night is a night to be HIGH! and INTERESTING!

Last Day in Form 6 Life

2010-06-27T20:12:00.002+08:00

Friday is my last day in BGSS.. At first, I really don't like the school.. The school surround, the students and the discipline of the students.. But, after being together with one week, I start to fall in love with all the teachers and classmates! Start to have the feeling of not to leave them away! But, I have to! I will going to the IPGM Kampus Batu Lintang this coming Monday!

I would like to thanks all the teachers and friends for accompany me for these few years! Thanks for the teaching and encouraging during my study time in school! And feel that the teachers in BGSS is kinda nice and helpful to me.. Concerned about me!

Tomorrow I'll be going to the IPGM to register myself.. I get the Degree of Education scholarship.. Quite scare to start the new life at there and live with a strange room-mate...

I think I CAN but I CAN'T

2010-06-22T20:36:00.002+08:00

Today, back to Paku secondary school.. need to do some of the certification works regarding my teacher training course! Lots of cert and documents need to be certified! Mine one already reached 100 piece and they need 5 sets.. So, I've to bring those 500 pieces of paper to school and ask for the principle to sign as the approval of the true cert that I've shown to him! Today, the principal and Png Hellon is not around and Chee is also busy with his own business.. mostly is about the UTM students is coming tomorrow.. So, we just wait for another teacher which has also the authority!

Kinda miss the school! The environment, the students, the teacher and of course my beloved friends! I really love them so much! I met few teacher only lar.. they all are so concerned about me and my future.. At least I think so.. Mdm Annabella, Mdm Rosita, Miss Tay, Mdm Zahidah, Miss Alice and so much more.. Really touched and felt warm about that!

Before I left, i got the chance to meet some of my Form 4 friends! Calvin, Rebecca, Jovian, Phexia... They really treat me so nice and made my so sad to leave them..

Before that, I think I can go to the teacher training school happily without feeling any sadness and loneliness.. But today I think I can't! I'll really miss them so much! No more family beside me; no more friends at my side.. I'll be fighting by my own power.. I've to struggle with the school works which I think would not be an easy stuff! But I'll fight for that! I've to complete my course!!

Today, someone said I'll be treat badly by the students if I become a teacher! I'll and must prove that her thinking is absolutely wrong! I'll be a great, excellent teacher! Trust me! Amen!

I Hate Driving Lesson Already

2010-06-19T10:15:00.001+08:00

I had my driving lessons already about 8 times and often my time wasted to wait for the others to complete their training then it's my turn! I've only one hour to learn! And he always so talkative.. I just want some silence.. I can't concentrate if he keep on talking.. That's why when he was out of the car, I can perform better!

So, next time, just SHUT UP! Mine your own business.. Yesterday, a girl suddenly stop at the middle of the road! I saw her already out of the parking, so i just drove there to do my practice.. Silly girl stop at middle and her instructor also mad! Always call me to stop! You should call ur student to drive not ask me to stop! How can I stop in the middle of the road! Kinda mad!

I've to speed up my driving lesson so that I can get my licence faster and so not cause any interruption while I'm in IPGM! But, the instructor said can't! What the mad! I'll practice and hopefully I can do it in this Wednesday!

Again! I've new info!

2010-06-18T14:03:00.003+08:00

These days busy doing the works regarding the IPGM.. that's teacher training school! Lots of things need to be done..

The offer letter need to post to PJ and of course Kuching..
Need to pack up my luggage for I need to stay in the hostel for one year!
Need to do the body check-up..

All these things was so messy because I've only 2 weeks to go to do my preparation works! Now, only one week.. Everything have to be settled.. I'll live in the hostel.. No more home!

And today I met a guy which is my mom customer.. He is also the student in IPGM which this year is his second last year! He'll be posting in year 2011.. I got the chance to ask about some info about the IPGM with him.. He's in the IPGM in Bintangor.. Compare to him, I'm nearer than him! I'm so glad about that! Lol

He was a nice guy that willing to tell me and chatting with me xD
He told me that beside chinese as my major subject, I've to choose another 2 minor subject! What subject should I choose? English? Still donno yet..

He also said that the night session isn't that anymore programmes... Just study by yourself in the hostel... haha.. I thought that the night still got some activities to do kok.. Lol.. Oh ya! The hostel didn't provide you any meal! You have to have your own dinner, lunch, and breakfast either in the canteen or out of the school! Luckily I'm in the city area! So, there's not so many trouble to worry!

Thanks him for the future! Wish you all the best! xD

Why so Hard to have a GATHERING?

2010-06-17T18:08:00.002+08:00

Why? Some of my same contemporary friends so weird? They often rejected the request that asked for a gathering! Not sporting and active lar you guys! Not concerned about the friendship.. You know.. We'll be separating after this.. Maybe we'll only meet up once a year! You guys want to be alone? Sorry! I don't want!

I don't care anymore lar.. I just ignored you! Let you do your own decision! I can't force you think as what I'm thinking! Just feel very sad and disappointing!

One Weeks to Go!

2010-06-17T18:02:00.002+08:00

I'm coming! IPGM Kampus Batu Lintang! Waiting for the day of 28 June to come! Then I'll be starting my life in college and as a training teacher! Lolx.. Kinda excited about it!

I'll be wearing the formal clothing all the time in class and will be stayed in Hostel for one and half year for complete my "foundation"! So exciting! Hopefully will be fun with lots of dinner! Lolx..

One thing I'm worried now is that who want to become my room-mate? Hopefully I'll get someone who's kind and lovely to me! may God bless me! haha

Lovely Gift!

2010-06-17T17:42:00.002+08:00

Finally! Finally! and Finally I get my Lovely and Beloved camera that I hoped to get it long time ago! I really love that camera and fall in love with her since she was born... And finally after so much hard works, I finally get it! Of course I admit that I didn't done so much hard works to get it lar!

It was the Sony brand camera.. DSC-TX1.. Actually, I hope to have a T900. But, the seller said it was no longer produced! And the one I bought is the best among all those..

Thanks Dad for buy me this camera! It was now my PERSONAL camera! Okay? PERSONAL! Lolx.. it was so many function that I love to!

And it was also my gift for congratulating my ambition to be a teacher finally realized! Haha

Wah.. A hey day

2010-06-14T14:30:00.002+08:00

Today is such a happy and suprising day for me.. Really a hey day in my 18 years life.. You couldn't know how I felt now! Really happy than anyone should be! I love this day!

I should said yesterday? But it's on the 12 in morning.. Anyway, I can't sleep well on that night because keep on thinking about the result.. But, they didn't announced yesterday! Or maybe I don't know the way of checking.. Lol.. So, after dissapointing for almost 1 hour.. I went to sleep and thinking maybe the result is delayed because the result for calling to interview!

This morning, I checked again and use the same method.. This time I start to think that maybe it's really delayed for I heard from Emilia that last year the result delayed two time.. So, i just ignore it! And you guess what happened next?

I receive a message from Ziang Cheng! He asked whether I've checked the result or not? And he said he can help me to check and give him my ic no.. I'm so suprised and gave him of course! And I start to nervous and excited! Maybe because the telephone line isn't so good.. I need a longer time to send out my message to him.. Nervous and excited all the way! After 10 minutes, I received his message! He said I'm accepted by the teacher trainning school and it's means that I can sleep well and no need to worry about that anymore.. And most important is that finally my ambition and my futher study got place..

Thanks to Lord Jesus Christ, Mother Mary, Angels and Saints for helping me and hear my prayer! And of course my parents, teacher and friends for giving me the support! I love you all! mucks! xD

8 more hours to GO!

2010-06-13T16:06:00.002+08:00

8 more hours to go I've to face with the interview result... The result that will totally decide my future! It's not kiding okay.. My lovely future.. Whether I'm going to the teacher trainning school? Form 6? Swinburne? it's all depends on tomorrow-the result..

Truthfully, I do hope that I'll be accepted! I really pleaded for that.. Somehow, after having a tuition class with a small kid.. Haha! I be the tutorial! I felt that I really love kids and interact with them really a funny stuff and kinda interesting..

So, pray for me and bless me.. Amen! xD

Zhu Hun Night

2010-06-13T15:27:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, went to the Zhu Hun Night accidentally... xD

Actually, I'm not planning to go for that before that for no people to accompany me to do so.. All my friends which is the same comtemporary and close didn't involve in it.. Truthfully, they are not so active in the activities that out of school.. For me, I love to join such activities, but I had only small amount of friends.. Really so envy of some of my friends that they've so much more friends than I do.. Lol.. It's the fate.. Stop nagging!

Actually, I went to the entrance to wait and give things to my little bro.. So, while waiting for them, I met East.. He's still the same.. Don't have much difference than I thought.. Lol.. I greeted him and that's all! I don't have much things to talk and share with him..

Then, I met Carlyn! She said she still have a ticket of 8 ringgit and ask me whether I'm going to join them also... Then, I just going on with her suggestions.. Haha.. Never expected! Lol..

When the programme started, I heard from Carlyn that Jason is going to have a dance.. It was kinda shock.. it's all out of my expectiti0n.. I'm not looking down at him just don't expected he'll do that.. Lol.. His cloth and cosmetics was terribly cool.. Just looking like the Adam Lambert... haha..

I admit that I'm talkative and always talk in a loud voice which most of the people feel shy when I talk so loud! When I'm talking with Hui Ping regarding my form 6 things... A girl, Dena suddenly looked at me.. And she did also greet me! I was so shock to see her with Abby and Niki.. Wow! All from our school!

It's the time of the performance! Our school team performed the xiang sheng for the traditional group and the heart beat for the modern group! The xiang sheng is very intersting.. I like it! And the Heart-beat dance also intersting and performed well as they did in last year! We shouted and applaused to show our support to them..

Congratulations to Paku team that grabbed lots prizes from that.. Lol.. Support! ;p

Tired.. Exhausted

2010-06-12T02:26:00.002+08:00

These holiday is a tired holiday for me! A lot of stuff to do.. I've to catch up all the works in form 6 that I've missed.. So, I wouldn't be so panic when the school reopening.. But, it seems doesn't work so smooth as what have I predicted! Busy the my own works, tuitioning, learning my driving of course watching tv.. Maybe I should do it as fast as I could.. Lol.. But, the class still a big question for me.. When the registration of the school, I made a big mistake.. I took the Biology stream, instead I should take the physics stream for my result is better at the subject.. Not because of any interest problems, just that I think that Biology will be better at first for I want to become a pharmacist, but after some days, I started to think that why didn't I try on the Physics.. I've a better result and want to become an engineer and my biggest ambition is to be a pilot.. I knew it's probably will be some problems if I take pilot as my carrier.. Not because of any problems, the eyesigt problems! I'm so regret! Why I keep so close to the computer and the tv when I was young and regret now for cannot realize my ambition!

So, maybe I should start to deliver from all the tv and computer.. But, I couldn't! I keep on watching and enjoying in front of them.. Especially computer! I keep on watching drama.. It was so interesting.. You know? I can't even stay a day for not watching it... Haha..

And all the night I almost couldn't sleep well.. Always thinking the result for the KPLSPM, my interview.. Whether I'm be chosen or not? Well, I really do hope that I'll be chosen because I really love the job so much... Interact with kids.. Haha!

Driving Lesson

2010-06-10T22:24:00.002+08:00

Today morning, escaping from the job of the tuition teacher, going to Samarahan for my driving lesson.. When I receive the call from the teacher the day before, I was totally shock! How can i do it? My clutch often cannot controlled smoothly and that's what I felt and the teacher always told me.. But, anyway, I just go for it..

As what have I expected, I can't do for it because of the same mistake that I've mentioned! I should correct it so that I can pass it! Lol

Swinburne Day

2010-06-09T19:42:00.002+08:00

Tuesday went to Swinburne with Winnie and Judy to get some info regarding the next intake.. Actually I ever went to there in March when they organize the school open day.. So, this visit doesn't works so much for me.. All the infomation that I wish to have all I had it already..

We went to there approximately about 2 in the evening.. But, we have a date with the prof in there which is the Winnie's dad ex-teacher in 2:30.. So, we have to wait for the time to go.. Standing in front of the hall, looking around, seeing all the students... The time was so slow while we're waiting! I knew that I probably will met few of my friends in there for quite many of them study at there already!

Firstly, I met Cas and Mag.. These two guys I met them while I'm in the tuition centre... I didn't greet them for I knew that they don't know about me and I also saw them once in a week only.. So, just forget about it! Lol

Then I met Girly.. She's with her friends I think.. I almost cannot recognize her already for havent meet her for quite a long time already.. We're busy with our own bussiness..

I met one girl in front of the school hall also.. She looks like Jia Fen.. A girl that I knew while I'm tuition in ITC... I think is her.. But, she seems don't recognize me already.. it's okay lar.. I've lots of this experience.. I remember and recognize people and others dont.. Familliar already! Lol

I met also Aelred! I doesn't really recognize him... He changed lots for we're all bald when we're in camp.. When I look close at him, then I knew and greet him.. Studying bussiness! A future bussiness man! Haha

Everyone I met seems cares about me! This made me felt that so warm and concerned! They all asked whether I'm going to study with them in Swinburne for the August intake.. Lol.. It still matter that I should considered! Thanks anyway for those who cares about me, my friends!